I feel really bad.
I’ve been keeping a huge, gigantic secret from all of you.
Actually, I’ve been keeping it from most people in my life (except for my close family and friends). In September my blog went quiet for a little bit.
For more than a year I was preparing for the day that was going to change my life. I know a lot of people say that when they get married or have kids (I didn’t do either of those), but the change that I underwent is just, if not more life altering.
I had weight loss surgery.
I feel almost dirty saying it. I know I shouldn’t but there’s a huge stigma attached to it. I remember before the surgery we were at a friend’s house decorating cookies for Eid and I commented about preparing for the surgery and how that would mean easy on the cookies going forward. Her off handed comment was “I’m glad I have enough will power that I won’t ever need to do that.” What a slap in the face.
See what I mean about stigma?
Weight loss surgery is not the answer to weight problems. It won’t fix everything. If you ask me it takes MORE willpower to live with the surgery than it does for people with “normal” stomachs.
So here I am coming clean with you all. I have struggled with my weight from the time I was a child. I was teased in school. I was bullied. Some of my most vivid memories relate to my weight. The sad thing is when I look back at those pictures I looked normal! I was never the girl that got asked out by the popular guy. Nor was I the girl who could wear the “coolest” clothes because they didn’t fit. I’ve also always had severe back pain. For someone who is under 30 years old, I’ve thrown my back out more times than I care to think about. Carrying around 60-75 extra pounds didn’t help.
I had a vertical sleeve gastrectomy. What this means is that the surgeon removed a large portion of my stomach, 80-85%. There are several different weight loss surgeries but this is the option both my surgeon and I fit my current and future needs the best. I liked that it didn’t alter the flow of food like a RNY surgery nor did it have a lot of upkeep like a lapband. So far I’ve had very few problems.
Recently I had my 6 month surgery anniversary date. It feels like yesterday. While I can only eat a small amount of food at anytime I’ve not limited myself to the foods I eat. I can’t do that, because I know it’s not sustainable. But I have found I am satisfied when I can eat the things I love, even if it’s just a few bites. I’ve also been working out regularly to tone my body and help with weight loss. As I said earlier, weight loss surgery is not an answer to a problem, it’s just a tool to help me reach my goals.
So why am I sharing this very personal part of my life?
I’m tired of being ashamed. I’m tired of people judging others for being overweight and then judging them for the choices they make to become healthier. I am tired of people not understanding the realities of weight loss surgery. I don’t intend to turn this blog into an “all about weight loss surgery” resource. But I share so many parts of my life with you all. I value you and consider you a part of our family. It was time to let you know about this change for me. I’m not quite at my goal weight yet but am working hard to be there by June. I hope you’ll be here to celebrate with me then!
If you’ve got questions about this, are look for resources or are interested in WLS friendly recipes would you leave me a comment or send me an email? (You know I always love your comments and emails – so even if you could care less about this announcement leave me a note!)
Along with my journey I’ve been participating along with a great group of women in the Shaklee 180 program. On March 1st the program started and since we were gone until March 10th I started a little late. The program offers users a complete plan including protein shakes, meal replacement bars, snack bars and a nutrition plan. Starting this program I knew I would have to make a few changes from the guidelines. My daily calorie intake is about 500 calories less than the lowest recommended in the program, and I also have to maintain between 60-80g of protein a day. So can this plan really work for someone who has had WLS? I’ll spend the next six months test driving it! I’ll be sharing monthly updates including a few videos! I hope you’ll be a part of my journey too!
Disclaimer: This is a sponsored post as part of the Shaklee Corporation blogger program. I have received free products, online support, and incentives for participating. My opinions are my 100% own. People following the weight-loss portion of the Shaklee 180™ Program can expect to lose 1-2 pounds per week.